Mend and Make Do. And Jam. Make Jam …


Sometimes the oddness, the isolation, of my position strikes with heart stopping light-bulb-bright clarity.

Yesterday it happened as I poured a saucepan of recently boiled rain water into the water filter.

We harvest what the skies yield during our six months of wet in big blue barrels which stand damply sentinel dotted at untidy random around the house beneath a makeshift guttering. We boil it, we filter it, we bottle it. All in a bid to avoid giardia and typhoid and dysentery.

The Arabs taught Dr Livingstone that it was imperative to boil water. He might never have met Stanley otherwise; dysentery can be more than just debilitating. They probably delivered that lesson not far from where I live for my Outpost home was, once, the focal point of explorers and slaver traders.

I boil water. I fill the loo cistern with full bottles of (unsafe to drink) tap water to minimize the flush.

 ‘How many times a day do you flush the loo’, Husband asks.

That’s how worrisome our water shortages can become.

I stand in a bucket when I take a shower so that I might preserve a little of the run off. For pot plants, the veg patch, the loo …

So I ponder, as I watch a sheet of safe, silver water spill into the filter, what else separates my life, what else makes it different? What clues would my home deliver that my life is a little unhinged?

• I can see a nest of Marabou Stork from my verandah; they hunker, long limbs and broad wings, folded into an untidy mess atop a tree. I can hear them when they take flight, they limber up noisily and flap in such uncoordinated fashion you wonder how they managed to get airborne.

• I have two chest deep freezers full of food (for in the Outpost you cannot buy butter, cheese, chickens, bacon, fresh milk …) and frozen harvests from the vegetable garden which, now that the rains have gone, will desiccate to powdery nothing within days. Beside bags of spinach are foot square cubes of ice which I will pack into a cool box tomorrow when I go to the fish market six hours drive to the north.

• A generator sits outside the kitchen door. When it sputters to life, which is often, it does so loudly and smokily so that we must close doors and windows just to hear ourselves think, just to avoid being asphyxiated by noxious black belched fumes.

 • My computer trails not one internet modem but four. Invariably one, or two, or three (and sometimes all four) options are down and so Hat cannot go to school and I cannot commune with a world outside the insular one I live in. Our tenuous connection with cyber space, Hat and I agree, is our life line.

• The lawn, quickly becoming jaundiced as it dehydrates from lush, wet green to nicotine stubble, is festooned with three different pipes. A fire hose is attached to the fire hydrant which the colonials installed fifty years ago; another is attached to the pipe line behind our house which serves a local dignitary’s home (in the vain hope he might get more water than mere mortals such as us) and – more recently – another snuck snakily in beneath the garden fence. All of them are angled optimistically into the depths of a 60,000 litre water tank into which a fourth pipe from the roof gutter feeds. All four presently peer disconsolately into the dark emptying space beneath them where guppies swim to keep the mosquito population in check. Sometimes one or other of them might spit feebly so that we get all over excited, ‘we’re got water coming in, we’ve got water coming in’, which – of course – just scares it clean away.

• Beside the swimming pool, its levels swiftly receding, are three fish traps. They lean against one another as eccentric, intoxicated garden decoration. And next to them is a dugout salvaged from the dam. For when my garden heaves a last sigh, gives up and dies altogether, I still have something to break up the brown and beige and taupe of sand.

• The medicine chest in my bathroom overflows with a plethora of drugs: antibiotics (for sore throats, boils, tyhpoid), painkillers (for sore throats, boils …), clove oil (for toothache) antimalarials (for when the guppies haven’t done their job) and malarial treatments (for when the antimalarials haven’t done theirs). On the floor beside my bed is a door stop of a book detailing every ailment you can imagine, it is well thumbed and has lost its spine. The two conspire as GP and pharmacist and when I still can’t find the answer I seek,  I text one of several doctors whose numbers are stored on my phone who are sympathetic to my lonely plight.

• On my bedside table are piles and piles of The Week and the Spectator, some remain unopened for our recent absence meant mail collected and I returned to several editions of each. Sky News and BBC World gratify the urge to remain – albeit at stretched to breaking point distance – connected to the Big Wide World, but they do not satisfy the need to understand more, they do not deliver the conservation and debate of daily newspapers: the Week and the Spectator do a good job of filling that gap.

• There is almost silence spilling for miles around me. Apart from those clumsily flying Marabou, I might hear the odd rooster, an occasional dog whose bark might – briefly – prod my own two hounds from slumbering reverie and dreams of guinea fowl shoots, come evening I might endure the rude caw of crows as they hang around the back door when those two dogs, awake now, for it’s grub time (Pavlov’s Dogs) are fed . Occasionally I will hear a plane and tip my head skyward for the sound is a rare one now that most of the scheduled services have been stopped. And at night I might hear the shriek of a train as it grumbles on its way across the loneliest bit of Africa.

 • And in my kitchen today, apart from a tall chrome water filter filled satisfyingly to the brim, there is a deep pan of guava, rose pink and glossy. Hat and my son and I collected them from the tree outside Hat’s school room window (where the birds fight over them raucously), I climbed up into its branches and felt 10 again, and now they are own their way to becoming preserve.

• And perhaps that’s the thing that sustains me most amidst the isolating madness and stifling too silent stillness of this place: the making of jam?

9 Responses to “Mend and Make Do. And Jam. Make Jam …”

  1. nuttycow Says:

    It’s posts like this that make me yearn for the heat of Africa. However, I understand what it must be like, feeling so far away from the rest of the world. It’s the little things that must make the difference. Keep an eye out for them!

    Love to the family (it’s weird, having read you for so long, I feel as if I really know them which, of course, I don’t. Odd thing this internet lark!)

  2. Kit Says:

    What would it have been like before the internet, I wonder?
    And water is the most vital thing of all – we feel it on the farm too, whenever the borehole pump goes down and we have to rely on rainwater tanks, every drop counted, the loo flushed as few times as possible.
    It’s guava season here too now, lots of pureeing and freezing for guava fool. I haven’t tried guava jam though.

  3. R. Sherman Says:

    I’m not sure there’s a better essay describing East Africa for those of us who’ve never been there.

    As for water, I sometimes become despondent knowing that so many ills could be cured by nothing more simple than clean water. We do take for granted turning on the kitchen spigot for a drink and not worrying about getting some debilitating sickness.

  4. Iota Says:

    I like The Week too. Can you guess which bit I always turn to first? I bet you can.

    I sometimes forget how very different your life is. This post reminded me.

  5. Mamaayanna Says:

    I so enjoy reading your blog! And agree with R. Sherman; you describe East Africa so well!!

  6. doglover Says:

    Et in Arcadia, ego! But is seems to have one or two drawbacks!

  7. Rob Says:

    I used to prefer the Guardian Weekly, maybe that was in days before The Week. The problem with The Week of course, and other such higher quality, shiny, publications, is that its recycle use is limited. Unlike the old lightweight Guardian Weekly which was always in high demand once I was done with my copy, not necessarily for its editorial content, but more for (a) its good quality cigarette paper and (b) for another use which I won’t go into on a respectable blog such as this!

  8. connie Says:

    Beautiful post – thank you. A lot of what you describe resonates with me here in the Australian bush – but not, thank goodness some of the illnesses you are exposed to.

  9. Mwa Says:

    Wonderful post. I love getting such a first-row insight into your African life.

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