Princess Smartypants

I see Mum gazing at my books, my house is stuffed full of them – from mum, from my grandmother – a nine foot tall bookshelf teeters in a hallway, dredged in memories and dust (and happily too high to reach it’s summit to do any cleaning). Her fingers lightly trace spines, as if she might suddenly pluck a title to read. But she won’t. Because she can’t.

It is a peculiar thing, teaching an adult to read. More peculiar still when the adult you’re teaching is the one that taught you.

I watch her staring at her iPad, struggling to make sense of an email. I register the concentration in a creased brow and occasional clucks of irritation.  She could resort to the text to speech option but she won’t. She may have forgotten it’s there to use, but more likely she doesn’t like the robotic voice which has no comprehension of grammar so that sentences run confusingly on and long. And it hasn’t got a clue about African pronunciation; nothing sounds right. Every place sounds even more alien.

I have downloaded Apps to learn but they deliver dryasdust lessons, the images are repetitive. Peter and Jane all over again. So we mostly avoid those.

Instead we do crosswords, one every day. And I print off pages of letter combinations, sh, th, ch, pl, br, sq, in a bid to help mum shortcut her words.

I speak to Dr L at UCL, a preeminent doctor in Mum’s condition. He explains that we – readers –  don’t have to break down words, we see the word CAT as a visual object  so that our recognition of it is swift and whole and automatic, but mum’s condition has robbed her of the ability to see it as a visual which is why she has to break it down into its component parts – C-A-T.   He tells me he sees one patient a year with Mum’s Pure Alexia – being able to write but not read; it’s rare, he says.

Tired of the Apps, I dig down low and deep in that nine foot bookshelf, crouched on the floor, and I unearth Babette Cole’s Princess Smartypants.  It is one of hundreds of books Mum sent to my children when they were small. And curled up on a sofa with tea, she reads it to me, faltering over long words and laughing.

Because Princess Smartypants in the end, beats off all the suitors her parents have lined up, gives the last a kiss and turns him into a toad and proudly retains her status as a Ms.

Reading, no matter what you read, ought always be a thing of joy. It’s important to remember that. It’s especially important now.


3 Responses to “Princess Smartypants”

  1. sarah Says:

    Thank you for this poignant reminder of the gift of something that we take for granted. I caught myself thinking how lucky you are, to have your mother close, even under the difficult circumstances. My mother died suddenly and we had been living on different continents for many years. It was incredibly traumatic for me. I often wonder, what would life be like if she were still alive? Would she be in good health, or would I be in the difficult position of coming up with a long-distance care plan? Would I have the fortitude to navigate the emotional and bureaucratic difficulties?
    I appreciate reading your blog so much because you write with such unfettered vulnerability, and I’m so glad that you decided to continue with it. What a lucky mum you have; she has such a compassionate and caring daughter.

    • reluctantmemsahib Says:

      Sarah, thank you for reading. and for your comment. Yes, I am lucky to have her close – it must have been very hard to lose your mum suddenly and whilst so far away from one another. I am very struck by my mum’s vulnerability now; not being able to read does leave one so vulnerable, unable to comprehend alot of what goes on around one: an airport becomes impossible to navigate, a menu too long to read, a text message – of a few words – a huge challenge. We have a long road. If i can just get her to grips with some simple language that will help her to navigate that long road, I’ll be happy. x

  2. Ad dy Says:

    Baby steps. If reading childrens’ books makes her laugh, it may give her the confidence to build on that.

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